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i am here and not clear. today well i went to the local pool for about 2 and a half hours though i planned on going to the beach but that simply did not work out. i finally worked up an even tan which i find fascinating. i had a headache all day long, this is drudgery. my day is not worth thinking about. i feel like death i must go and off it .
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so i will be here. i guess this space is much safer and much more familiar than most. i dont know why really i have chosen to be here, but since this is the oldest diary i have kept online. 3 yrs and counting. i will continue to do so just because. i will go around and collect all my online journals and add them allhere. it will be a tough job since i am all over the place. but hopefully it will all make sense.
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no, this account has not been broken into this is, maggy herself, updating. believe it. i have gone to another diary that i have been updating rather often, every other day or so. i could not go on this one because, i felt like, there must be something simpler out there. i guess i had found what i had been looking for. anyhow i am rambling, just wishing i was back here,maybei will. probably yeah probably not. i'm sure i'll find a purpose for this journal. i hate the way this page looks it's making me sick. yeah i'll most likely do something about that.
its been a long while i hope i am not forgotten.
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[15 Mar 2003|07:09am] |
Since i am already here i might as well, write something.
You can't imagine where i am at.Let me save you the headache.... I am in an internet cafe the first time i have been here and this is the second hour i have been here.Its addictive sorta.
can you believe I am outside my house doing something that i want to do, with no one telling me or showing me how.I fell independet how great is that. Yeah it's not that great since i dont really feel like being outside.I am just not use to it.I am use to hiding out in my house, wanting to just dissapear. But i am here i made it. I am not totally independant since susi was the person who brought me here. Well this the second time i have done this, i take the train with susan then she goes to work while i do something else whatever i feel like ,really.I could go anywhere in the city if i could.Just as long i meet up with her before she leaves work.Thats the only condition. It feels cool to go wherever i want to go, but the truth is i have NO where to go, no one to see. I am just here typing away at a internet cafe. This is soo not cool if i had done this a while a go maybe a year ago, i tell you i would be having lots more fun, this time last year i was a bit more optomistic. I wanted to do things,now its like yeah whatever. I don't really know why I am here. I wanted to go and buy some pair of pants but i dont think i even have enough money for that cuz in my pocket i have like 35 bucks which isn't enough for much in this overpriced place. I was planning on going to urban outfitters but what for really, I want to pick up a tee shirt i saw on their site but then i wouldnt have that much money left. So instead i may just go to take a look.I don't know i wish i wasnt me. I wish i had someone to be with right now,better yet i wish i wanted to be with someone, cuz really i don't. i wish i was a normal-teenager,doing teenagy things i don't need to explain what i mean do . but what i am is a OTA Original Teen Angster. hoohaa. thats what i am.
i have nothing to say, my time has ran out ciao.
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| So I can't keep my promises. |
[29 Jan 2003|02:01am] |
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I said I would write here, as much as possible.I guess I lied.The truth is I don't think what happens during my day is worth writing about.Let alone for all the world to read. I thought that maybe things would get interesting, I would have something to write about. I know now that it doesn't matter what I write as long as I write.About Something Anything.I need proof that I have done something in my life. Even if I don't think it's important enough, even if I know no one would read it, it's still important for me to express my emotions.It is worth it. Atleast for me it is. I have so much to say, but some how I don't think they are good enough to be read.I do not really know why I care, if someone reads it or not. No one has ever judge what I write about.I think it is just me being paranoid. But I don't think like that anymore I know now that writing means a lot to me. Without it I feel like i haven't accomplished much. I am writing this to remind myself why I need to update my journal more often. Of course I do keep a journal online I have for about a month now. But in a different site. I write everyday in my notebooks, but this journal means a lot to me because it was my very first online journal. So, I need to keep up with my writing, in here. Always and forever.
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[04 Dec 2002|10:14am] |
So i am here read what i wrote before most of it doesnt really make any sense.I have to remember what happened on that wednesday i kinda for get.gosh i have a really bad memory.I have to write more so many things has happened since.I went back to brooklyn this saturday left ther next day.Thanksgiving was awesome dennis came over that was waaay cool, lois came too, but she nothing to eat i wish she had.I cooked and i cook pretty goo.I made some macaroni salad and some potatoe salad but my sis made most of that.But it was my idea to have like a big dinner.I threw a whole bunch of pics, i sent some to Jose.I hope he's gotten them already.I dont think he has like a computer to use over there.I wish he could email me already i sent him two emails already and he hasnt emailed me anything.whats up with that.He said he may be comming by the end of december, i really hope he does.
My uncle is now a father.He has his first child on November 25, 2002.It was a girl,they named her Ashley.That a weird name for her dsince its kinda hard to pronouce it in spanish.But anyway he called us last week and he was soo excited you can totally hear his happiness from his voice.He really wanted to have a kid,his first baby how cute.I have'nt seen the baby yet,actually i havent even seen his wife yet, he got married last year Dec 2, 3 days before my birthday.I didnt go to the wedding since theres was no room for much people only my mom went.Anyways, i'm soo happy for him and his new family,and he also has a stepdaughter/neice.Loooong story.....
So yeah going to brooklyn was awesome on this time,time seemed to go by faster because i was always busy.We were suppose to go on friday, but yeah you know how we are, we are always late for everything.But anyways we got all ready to go, but then my mom kept cleaning the girls kept screaming at her telling her to hurry up.They were all mad at me for not getting dress fast enough.By the time we knew it was 10pm so were like forget it we can make it there tommorow.It takes 2hrs to get there,so leaving at 10pm meant that we were going to get there at 12am, the had a vigil so it didn t reallly matter, but then it was really cold.So anyways we all decided to go on Saturday.On saturday everyone was ready to go really early so there was no problem with that.At around 12pm Ericka called and she said to wait for her cuz she was in her fathers house and she wanted to go home with us(she takes the same train).First we had to go buy something for my brothers to eat....after that we waited for her for like an hour.Then she came and it was all cool cuz all the girls really wanted to go.The train ride was cool, i threw some pics.I brought my Digcam with me.I have some pics that i want to post later,yay.She told me about,Jose how she doenst like him anymore though i know she still does.They likes eachother since they were 15 and 16 now they are 21 and 22.I think they should get marry already.So anyways we got to emma's but as always she wasn't there, whats up with that she is NEVER there when we go.We still go in her house but we have to wait a while, what a coincidence.Anyways when we got there, her grandson and his dad was there.Elkins (thats his name) her grandson was soo shy he left so fast when he saw us.I was like wow who was that?I didnt even see him at first.He's 15 now, dag i knew him since he was like 8 its soo weird though cuz he looks exactly the same.Except for his voice,it's changing-puberty.lol.After about an hour emma came,with her daughter they went shopping to buy something for bebo.They bought him these cute church clothes.She was glad to see us as usual.After that delilah came with Raidi(emma's grandaughter) they were shopping too.Well yeah after that it was like 5 o clock we arrived there at about 2pm.We had nothing to eat but some thanksgiving left over, we had had earlier.My sis were all starving.There was no time to eat we had to get ready for church it starts at 7:30.So anyways i got all dressed and ready
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I promised i would write about evrything that has happened.I didn't have enough time, the last time.But now i do.I wanna start from the very beginning starting with going to brooklyn( then up to today, sunday school.
So out of no where mom has the feeling to go to brooklyn.For no apparent reason she just wants to see those people.My fave ppl in the world.So she calls emma, and tells her that she wants to go.Eventhough we haven't spoke to them in like months.Anyways, emma as always says sure you can come whenever.So my mom decides to go tuesday and i think she called about 2 wedsnesday ago somewhere in the end of october.Anyways so we all get ready to go(me and my four sisters and my mom)We did not plan to stay over so we didn't bring any luggage but just in case i brought an extra shirt.We through pictures in the train.. the ride was cool.we got there in like the evening like at 5pm.No one was home except for Jimenez and ,an old friend of ours he was fixing the sink(and bebo but he was sleeping).So we waited a while for like 5 mins then we all decided to go to lucia's house(which is two buildings down).We stood there for a while we saw ofelia and lucia's husband.But albert wasn't there since he had moved to ohio early on in the summer time.Anyways we were just hearing my mom talk ti them about stuff, my bros school, the usual.They had Laura(jerry spriger kind of show) on tv so we were pretty bored.An hour later, emma came back to her house so the girls decided to go back over there since they really wanted to se them.I wanted to as well but i decided to stay with my mom until she finished eating her dinner(the made some cod fish with some rice)I didn't eat any of it but, i had something to drink, coke i think.So then martha came,she was glad to see me,kinda surprised eventhough she already knew we were going to go.But it was cool, She was some where else not with emma.So she didn't know where she was.Anyways,we talked for like a few minute.then she went to her cousins room, for something.After a few minutes we decided to go to emma's house too.Everyone was in the living room as usual,i said hi to emma and sonia they mentioned how thin i looked.I was like "whatever,i'm not thinner".Anywho.My mom wanted to make some mangu,so me and the girls went to the supermarket.and picked some stuff up.I wasted all the money we brought cuz i didn't know if martha had enough money or not.SO i ended up wasting all of it, and i think mom was mad.But anyways we bought everything we needed.So it was cool.My mom cooked it all and it was verry very good, every one had some, and loved it.Except for maybe delilah since she doesn't like smash plaintains but whatever.IT WAS GOOD.They had a prayer service at about, 8'oclock.So we had to eat kida quickly.We ate of course in the little room, where my sisters were playing with bebo, whose much bigger from when we last saw him last he's 2 now.Anyhow we all got ready to pray. God spoke to me that day, about alot of stuff, some sad stuff but all very hopeful.i cried alot,during the prayer and after.I felt good, relived.Like GOD really cares about me.He spoke to kathy too,it was all really good.Just like i wanted it to be like.It was definitely a change.That's one pf the reason i love going there,it makes me sorta closer to GOD, ya know.Its weird but it akwasy does.i guess GOD really works a lot there.He works alot every where, but you know.ahh anyways, after all that mom decided to stay eventhough there was school tommorow, it too late to go out and take a train all the way back home, since it takes almost 2 hrs to get there.So me kathy and luisa went to sleep over martha's house because there wasn't much room in emma's house.SInce alot of people were staying over too.Like always.We took a taxi to her house and when we got there, we saw martha's little neice, Chelsea she is soo cute.She's four and she talks waaay more than most 4 yrs old. Even more tha my cousin whose 5.she would say,"LOOK AT ME" and she would jump around and say" I'm doing some sesercise!"lol it was really funny, i could'nt help laughing.We were looking through her photo albums just like we ALWAYS do when we go to her house.Eventhough i've seen those picture billions of time i never get tired of them, never.She has a few pictures of me when i was younger,but picturs that i don't have but wish i did.She gave us some chips and soda, before we headed to bed.While her sister who lives there with her husband and two kids, was making some of my moms mangu which she liked alot.Her son is soo cute too his name is chris, and he is even more hyper than his sister, her runs around alot(for no reason).He doesn't talk or anything but he is very hyper.I remeber carrying him whn he was just a few days old.Now he's a year old and so big for his age.ANywho it was good seeing them all.Me and kat took the bed, which was in the living room(martha lives in the living room now.her sis took ker room)and martha and luisa slept on the floor.I really didn't want to sleep,so we all talked for a few minuted and played some music.Martha didn't want to leave the cd on cuz she doesnt like playing it while she sleep but i'm the opposite i can;t sleep with out some kind of noise.Anyways she let me play it but just very low, real low.But thats okay.I didnt mind.I stood awake for an hour more than everyone else,i just stood up praying think about what GOD had told me.I had a good night.
Wednesday....I'll have to finish this up later.I'm gettin tired.
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[14 Nov 2002|12:47pm] |
I have to update!!!i promised myself i would update once every week atleast.But i haven't had a chance, oddly enough i've been kinda busy lately.I came from, bk yesterday.It was waaay awesome, and i really wish i was there and not here.i WANT TO GO BACK!but anywho i can't type everything that i want to write but i'll just skim trough the main details.
Nov.5-Nov.13
- Went to Bk last tuesday came back the next day,wednesday.
-thursday went to school with ralph and sue, then to her job.
-friday and saturday stood home did nothing as usual.
-Sunday went back to bk,it was great but no one was home, when we got there.Stood in bk until yesterday, tuesday.Learned some sign language while i as there, more about that later, too.
-today,wednesday got some knitting suppiles(obviously im into that stuff now),did nothing felt tired and bitter the whole day,explanations later.....
So yeah thats what i've been up to, anytime before that,i was probably doing nothing as always.And as always I can't remember what i did.
I will write more stuff when i'm less tired,it's like 1am now and i have to go to school with ralph and sue tommorow again,I'm going for motivational support.(i think) but i dont know, i dont want to stay on sues job the whole entire day.It can get tiredsome.....Ahh i need to get some sleep, i haven't showered, and my back hurts.I have to return some books. tommorow.Blah, anyways more tommorow, promise....i have lots to say and much to cry and whine about.
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so what up kiwi.I'm hear just watching some vids on tvu .Im rather bored got nothing to do for today.I was plannign on going to bk but i guess thats out.It's kinda late too.But i still wanna go though.I really wanna go i wish i could just there with them i would really love that ya know.But anyways thats not gonna happen now, so forget about it.I have to wash my hair i haven't wash my hair in such a loooong time.It stinks and it's itchy, and theres a bunch of lice, hahah.Yeah get my point.So yeah i have nothing to write about, nothing.
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I have to try to make my site already i'm making site for gilmore girls but i'm not nearly done, but i'll start maybe right now, i'm bored i have nothing else to do.I have to update me journal in livejournal before i forget not anyone reads but i need to do it.I hate writing dod you know that, it's just to hard to think and write at the same time i have so much to write about, but it just doesnt come out.ya know.But i have to practice the more natural it gets the easier it will get i suppose so yeah.I have a new journal too, a regular black and white notebook.I have'nt started yet but i will soon.I have to write!!!!!!i love writin but at the same time i hate it.BUt yeah like i said i have to practice.I want to fill that book up like each month get a new notebook.that would be cool.yeah.but i have to start already.I like this song that just came on.I totally forgot who sings it oh yeah dogwood, duh!I just remebered.I like to skateboeard though i've never really skated but i think its really cool.ya know.just like playing the drums i absolutle love drums but ive never really played before.lol.but whatever one of these days.yeah.thats like the hundreth yeah, lol.I wna tot take this dye out my hair but u really don't at the same time.I'm just not sure i like my natural hair, but it doenst look right but i like my balck hair too, cuz it a little odd, and i like that.sio i dont know.
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ahhaa yesterday sammy came to my home and he said the funniest thing
"You have to fall in love,i've never fell in love but i want to."
he said somehting along those lines, probably thats exactly what he said.Its soo weird because that the first time ever when i heard a guy say that in real life not in like the movies,i think that was soo cool cuz, he was talking to my broz,like who would talk about that witht their friends i think that was kinda odd, but in a good way.my bro were like nah theres no such thing as ong only lust, blah blah blah.That is soo dumb!but yeah.I think sam is a cool dude 1 in a bunch ya know.No other guy would ever admit that like that, that took alot of guts.ha go sam!
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talking about boy, i wonder whatever happend to that kid booboo, yeah that kid.his nameis really Joaquin yeah but no one ever called him that i havent seen him since last year i think.yeah its been that long, i ca't believe it but yeah it has been.I thought he was a cool dude too but sonewhat fake.Like he really wanted me to go out with him even though we didnt really know eachother.So i was ike nah dude i dont really know just wait awhile,but yea.when i finally told him that i didnt want to be with him, he asked me if i could still be hisd friends i said yeah of course i'm still your fired i told him.but you know he stopped going to church much, so yeah that scukz i reallthink if i had said yeah or atleast let him downa little easier he would be still in churcxh, that mde me feel bad, but theres nothing that i can do now.so yeah what about him, hope hes okay and that he would come to church again.that would be nice.
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I wonder what ever happened to john too he has stop goig to church.yeah i wish he could return i thought he was really cool, though io dont really know at all.I just know his name and some other stuff and i've never really talked to him, except for like xcuse me maybe.I think other than that it's nothing.I don't like him like him but he just seems so nice.i'm such an idiot, gotta stop thinking abot guys mannnnnnnnnn!
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i like this song let me write it down.
wait a sec.
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i cant believe what lois just did that...she totally dissed us(my family)she was really mad that deniis stood home yesterday.it was his choice and she acxts as though we made him stay, we would never make him do anyhthing he's big enough to make his decisions thank you very much!.She acts liek we dont want them to be togehter but that is soo dumb because we really want them two to be together forever.I think they make an awesome couple, plus she's family forever!why is she acting like that?he never acxted like that before so too faced, but anyways i hope she was just feeling lonmely that would be really messed up if she was really like that,nah she;s not liek that shes a great person, she was just lonely thats all, i hope.
i'll be back in a few!
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[10 Oct 2002|01:46pm] |
I'M BACK AND I'M BACK FOR GOOD!
i'm not leaving this place again, i forgot how much i like writting stuff.
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[10 Oct 2002|01:46pm] |
I'M BACK AND I'M BACK FOR GOOD!
i'm not leaving this place again, i forgot how much i like writting stuff.
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[10 Oct 2002|01:46pm] |
I'M BACK AND I'M BACK FOR GOOD!
i'm not leaving this place again, i forgot how much i like writting stuff.
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AngelEye563: you didn't write your name in the fwd
FFashi0nablyL0UD: yes, and don't forward it
FFashi0nablyL0UD: copy and paste it
AngelEye563: i know
FFashi0nablyL0UD: it looks better that way
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AngelEye563: no you didn't
FFashi0nablyL0UD: yes
AngelEye563: no it dosen't say it
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AngelEye563: i did
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FFashi0nablyL0UD: the original copy
AngelEye563: it only says two other girl's name
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AngelEye563: your welcome
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AngelEye563: you want to put your last name ??
FFashi0nablyL0UD: nope!
AngelEye563: ok
FFashi0nablyL0UD: just maggie or maddie
FFashi0nablyL0UD: whichever
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FFashi0nablyL0UD: send it to crys
AngelEye563: yea ok
FFashi0nablyL0UD: i forgot to
FFashi0nablyL0UD: did you go to kiwibox?
AngelEye563: no not yet
AngelEye563: crystal send me an e-mail like that
FFashi0nablyL0UD: ohhh, yeah i told her about
FFashi0nablyL0UD: i talked to her earlier
AngelEye563: i know i called her and she told me about it
AngelEye563: whats your name in neopets ??
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FFashi0nablyL0UD: please, i want to get more points
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AngelEye563: i'm going i'm going
FFashi0nablyL0UD: ahaha, j/k
AngelEye563: so how are you ?? and the family ??
FFashi0nablyL0UD: i'm fine
FFashi0nablyL0UD: the family, you talk like your old...
AngelEye563: and the family ??
FFashi0nablyL0UD: lol
AngelEye563: lol
FFashi0nablyL0UD: my family is otay, i suppose
AngelEye563: funny
AngelEye563: lol ok
FFashi0nablyL0UD: i know, harde har har
FFashi0nablyL0UD: so hows church
AngelEye563: i donno i should be askin you
FFashi0nablyL0UD: haven't been there since..um
FFashi0nablyL0UD: what!
FFashi0nablyL0UD: don't you go
FFashi0nablyL0UD: easter was the last time
FFashi0nablyL0UD: like 2 months ago
AngelEye563: damn
FFashi0nablyL0UD: yep, and you?
FFashi0nablyL0UD: aren't you like the president or something
AngelEye563: i only go on Sundays and some of Juveniles day
AngelEye563: no
FFashi0nablyL0UD: why? u was good at church
FFashi0nablyL0UD: >:o
AngelEye563: lol
FFashi0nablyL0UD: oh wellllll
AngelEye563: and you should not be talking how about you ??
FFashi0nablyL0UD: what about me.....lol, nah
FFashi0nablyL0UD: i just dont feel like it anymore
FFashi0nablyL0UD: ya know
AngelEye563: yes i know
FFashi0nablyL0UD: obviously
FFashi0nablyL0UD: plus im moving
FFashi0nablyL0UD: this year
AngelEye563: 4 real
FFashi0nablyL0UD: possibly to brooklyn
AngelEye563: where ??
FFashi0nablyL0UD: ^
FFashi0nablyL0UD: yeah
AngelEye563: damn so far
FFashi0nablyL0UD: not sure when, but definitely this year
FFashi0nablyL0UD: yeah....
FFashi0nablyL0UD: i hate the bx!
FFashi0nablyL0UD: hate it!
AngelEye563: oh i'm gonna miss you :-[
AngelEye563: i love it LOVE it
FFashi0nablyL0UD: sure, you will...
AngelEye563: lol
FFashi0nablyL0UD: errrrr
FFashi0nablyL0UD: bk, is nice
FFashi0nablyL0UD: i love it there
FFashi0nablyL0UD: :-D
FFashi0nablyL0UD: sooooo, nuff bout me
AngelEye563: thats good
FFashi0nablyL0UD: whats up with you ....
FFashi0nablyL0UD: anything new
AngelEye563: nothing the usuall
FFashi0nablyL0UD: yeah... passed your grade?
AngelEye563: yes
FFashi0nablyL0UD: yeah, okay...
FFashi0nablyL0UD: sure
AngelEye563: yea sure
FFashi0nablyL0UD: lol
FFashi0nablyL0UD: :-P
AngelEye563: lol
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AngelEye563: you havin fun doin that ??
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FFashi0nablyL0UD: yeah
FFashi0nablyL0UD: lol
AngelEye563: you crazy
FFashi0nablyL0UD: i know i am but what are you
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AngelEye563: i'm crazzzzzy too !!!!!!!! (lol)
FFashi0nablyL0UD: tell me something i don't know
FFashi0nablyL0UD: hahah
AngelEye563: ummm something
AngelEye563: lol
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FFashi0nablyL0UD: craaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaazy
AngelEye563: so you got a boyfriend ??
AngelEye563: i know
AngelEye563: thank you
FFashi0nablyL0UD: yeah, his name is tommy
FFashi0nablyL0UD: ahahaha
AngelEye563: 4 real
FFashi0nablyL0UD: just kidding
AngelEye563: oh
FFashi0nablyL0UD: actually his name is bob
FFashi0nablyL0UD: sponge bob !
AngelEye563: so when are you gonna get one ??
FFashi0nablyL0UD: he is sexy!
AngelEye563: lol
AngelEye563: you dum butt
FFashi0nablyL0UD: tommorow, i'll go shopping for one, wanna come
FFashi0nablyL0UD: ?
AngelEye563: sure lol
FFashi0nablyL0UD: lol, i can't just get one, ya know
AngelEye563: why ?? ?? ?? ?? ?? ??? ? ? ?
FFashi0nablyL0UD: u must have one.....i know you do
FFashi0nablyL0UD: cuz,you cant!
AngelEye563: no not really
FFashi0nablyL0UD: don't lie
AngelEye563: you can't have a boyfriend ??
FFashi0nablyL0UD: i can see you right now, gigglin
FFashi0nablyL0UD: umm.sure i guess....but
FFashi0nablyL0UD: i can't just be like , i want that one
AngelEye563: yes you could
FFashi0nablyL0UD: i have to like wait, anyways it's not like they are everywhere ya know
AngelEye563: lol
FFashi0nablyL0UD: i'm stuck in my house all.......sooo blah!
AngelEye563: ok wut ever
FFashi0nablyL0UD: day^
FFashi0nablyL0UD: lol,,,, thats my excuse whats yours?
FFashi0nablyL0UD: that prettier
AngelEye563: i don't have one
FFashi0nablyL0UD: cuz???
AngelEye563: umm mine is that my dad
FFashi0nablyL0UD: u know u are a flirt and all..... so whats the deal
FFashi0nablyL0UD: yeah...okay... not a good excuse
FFashi0nablyL0UD: thats not why!
FFashi0nablyL0UD: hello??? earth to devileyes..anyone home?!
AngelEye563: lol
AngelEye563: yes it's that my mom was callin me
FFashi0nablyL0UD: okay....
FFashi0nablyL0UD:
sho
AngelEye563: what ??
FFashi0nablyL0UD: u changed your home page...it sucks
FFashi0nablyL0UD: sho=sure
FFashi0nablyL0UD: derrrr
AngelEye563: lol
AngelEye563: you suck
FFashi0nablyL0UD: what happened to it ?
FFashi0nablyL0UD: u suck on ice
AngelEye563: atleast i have oone
FFashi0nablyL0UD: ahahaha
FFashi0nablyL0UD: i have one too it's soo pretty
FFashi0nablyL0UD: i just made it
AngelEye563: yea right
FFashi0nablyL0UD: i'm serious
AngelEye563: where ??
FFashi0nablyL0UD: my home page, you idiot!
AngelEye563: whats the address ??
FFashi0nablyL0UD: theres suppose to be a picture there, but it's messed up
FFashi0nablyL0UD: click on those words, dummy
AngelEye563: what words chicken head ??
FFashi0nablyL0UD: above,whats the address?
FFashi0nablyL0UD: durrr!
FFashi0nablyL0UD: it soooo not done
FFashi0nablyL0UD: but it's good for now
AngelEye563: ok what ever
FFashi0nablyL0UD: u saw it ???
AngelEye563: no
FFashi0nablyL0UD: katherine farted
FFashi0nablyL0UD: lol
FFashi0nablyL0UD: click on it you ass!
AngelEye563: i know
AngelEye563: lol
FFashi0nablyL0UD: no
FFashi0nablyL0UD: so???????
FFashi0nablyL0UD: look at it !
AngelEye563: it's ok
AngelEye563: it dosen't want to show the picture
FFashi0nablyL0UD: its more than okay
FFashi0nablyL0UD: it's the shitsnitz!
FFashi0nablyL0UD: hahaha
AngelEye563: lol
FFashi0nablyL0UD: i know piece of crap i'll fix, then u could see beautiful me!
AngelEye563: lol ok whatever
FFashi0nablyL0UD: u should a picture on yours....5'3? yeah right u are soo short!
FFashi0nablyL0UD: i'm 5"5.....
FFashi0nablyL0UD: ya know
AngelEye563: i know i have to fix that cuz the doctor said that i was 5*3 but when i went to see to another doctoe they told me another thing
FFashi0nablyL0UD: wait a sec
AngelEye563: ok
FFashi0nablyL0UD: okay try it now!
FFashi0nablyL0UD: i fixed it
AngelEye563: ok
FFashi0nablyL0UD: lol
FFashi0nablyL0UD: i gonna put a bunch of pics.....
FFashi0nablyL0UD: :-D
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[02 Jun 2002|03:38pm] |
there's too much stuff that has happened ,not so good stuff.i just finished writing 8 pages in "real" my diary and i feel soo much better.i'll write most of what i wrote soon.i just can't stay away from here, even if i try.i'm writing my journal at kiwibox....it's much more simplier.huuuh, i'm soo stressed i had a anxiety attack on thursday last week.yep anxiety attack, can't believe it either(i'll explain more later)...there was a fire today across the street from me, i called 911, i was petrified started to cry alot.don't know if everyone came out okay.it should be in the news tommorow.it was very bad.it happened at like 1am...can't sleep.suprise i didnt have another attack i was freaking out, though.i feel better now, i wrote about it...made me feel better.my cousins are sleeping over now, their mom's in the hospital.they have to stay here.their dad wont take care of them, how sad...life right now is hectic more than before.have to make an appointment for therapy,my mom or sis are suppose to do it.thanx alot!i have to do everything myself.ahhhhhhh.....they think is all my fault, like i made myself so freaking depressed,this too much, too much, too much.
later....
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[18 May 2002|10:33pm] |
Well this the end.This entry may be my last one.I really can't get used to writing here.It takes to much effort in my part.I just can't sit here and write as much as i liked.Plus LJ sucks so much, they have soo many glitches it's uncountable.And i'll have to pay just to have a decent looking journal.It's too much.And i'd have about enough.I'm sure this post will go unread.But i dont give shiznit.This is just my farewell post i guess.I prefer writing in my real journal anyways.I can look at it whenever i want with out waiting for the pc to be free.I'll still use it but not for journal entries probably for pics or something.Umm well, thats all.I guess Good Bye, dear Journal.
Peace out!ciao!asta la vista, baby!adios!te veo!good bye, nice to know ya!c ya later, alligator!in a while crocodile!so long sucker!see ya, never wanna be ya!hasta luego!Peace and a bottle of hair grease!
How original of me.... Bye!
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Boxcar Racer
'I feel so ...'
Sometimes
I wish I was brave
I wish I was stronger
I wish I could feel no pain
I wish I was young
I wish I would try
I wish I was honest
I wish I was you not I
'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, just mad
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
Sometimes
I wish I was smart
I wish I made cures for
How people are
I wish I had power
I wish I could leave
I wish I could change the world
For you and me
'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, just mad
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, just mad
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, just mad
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
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| My Highness.............................................................................. |
[01 May 2002|06:49pm] |
I think my teeth are going to fall out.lol,,i've eaten 3 lollipops already and i have 2 more to go.HA,i'm sugar high right now.OOh this reminds me of "cuz i got high cuz i got high, tadatata" lol.That song is the shitz!hahah, ahhhh the memories.
i can't get this song out of my head, does anyone know the lyrics to it.
'i feel so'- box car racer....that song is like running through my mind, in circles.but how come it's only tom and travis whats up with mark.I hope their not planning on breaking up.That would be messed upp ,yo.They kick hard bottom!Nah but BXC is goood too.I just hope mark joins too.Or that would stink butt.Yo, this BXC!
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i just took a bite of my lipgloss..mmmmmmmm,delicious.
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